... this past couple of weeks, I have been pondering about death... and how I would embrace the idea of dying just to know how it is really beyond the veil. Since my Mom passed away... death seems like a welcome thought. About an hour ago, we heard the news about Bro Kee. He just passed away. I just saw him this Sunday and he handed me my tithing slip like always. We always sit behind him and his wife every Sunday... the sting of temporary separation is painful. And it's like relieving the loss of my Mom's passing over and over again. I guess this pain of separation doesn't end until we are reunited with those we love who have gone before us. Our task now is to live our life in a way that we can claim them as our forever family. And as my Mama would say everytime we stepped out of our house, " 'nak, CTR!" And Ma... I will so I could be yours and you will be mine forever and always.... love and miss you everyday of my life.
Death...it was just an ordinary topic in FHE, FC, Dinning Table while growing up, we seriously talk about it at times but we laugh at it most of the times, until it happened to lolo doring, to uncle art, to mama and to nanay. Death...it brought us grief, so much pain and many tears. I just want to remember them everyday as if they still alive. Live by the words they taught me. From Lolo..."pag mata hin aga para makasalo ka hin gracia". From uncle art "batiin nyo naman ako-hindi lang pang lovers ang valentines day", From Nany "beautiful hands are those that works", and most of all from Mama's everyday reminder "CTR nak" each time we live the house.
ReplyDeletemy fear of death is 90% gone... the remaining 10% is for my family knowing that i will leave them temporarily. but the 90% is more on being curious somehow (what does death feels like?), iam not afraid to die knowing that in the other side of the veil there is mama waiting for me. dont be so excited because "it will come to pass...to us."
ReplyDelete@ Ate Lala: thank you for remembering Uncle Art and Nanay.. I feel great longing for them.
ReplyDelete@ Kuya: I miss talking to you and hearing your wise counsel. I love you Kuya... I know you know that.